Thursday, March 31, 2011

What I did today

I went up to clinic again today to get another dose of Retuxin and some platelets. My platelet count went from 21 to 13. This is still very low, but the doctors were encouraged that it hadn't dropped further. So they didn't give me any platelets, because they want to see if I have started making them on my own. I will go back up on saturday to see if I have continued to drop or if I have made more. All of this has made for a crazy week, but at least it gives me something to do.

It's hard to believe that someday I might actually be normal again, but I keep hoping. Sometimes it feels like cancer has been my entire life even though I had a wonderful 16 years without it. I find myself with nothing else to talk about except my "medical life" and I realize that it's because it has been my life for the past year. I am really looking forward to only having to worry about things that a normal 17 year old worries about. But I have learned that that is just how life is, we take what we've been given and we adjust the best we can. Nobody really is "Normal" after all :) Thanks for reading my blog, and a special thanks for the prayers and support. Cheers.



  1. You're right Rachel, no one really is normal. I think that we'll never be our old normal again. We just start a new normal that is hopefully better than the old normal. You will find it too. . . . have a great day and make lots of platelets today!

  2. Normal is only a setting on the washing machine. :).

    We,re always praying for you!

  3. You are amazing Rachel! I stumbled across your blog on another blog and couldn't stop reading your story. You are so beautiful, inspirational and upbeat. I'm rooting for you every day now! Stay strong girl! :)

  4. You are awesome! I learned through my tiny trials that have been placed in my way.... you do what ya gotta do. amazing what you can do when you have to! Love ya, Janae

  5. Hey, Rachel - if I could give you some platelets, I would! I'd also donate some body fat, since you need some of that. Just sayin'...

    Congratulations on your news today - that is awesome. 2011/2012 will be so great it will make up for missing your junior year. Your posters were amazing! Adam should go into campaign management.

    Love you!

  6. You will so win the election! Can't wait to hear. Prayers that your body is building it's own platlets.
    PS I got my Lucha shoes, adn I LOVE them!!

  7. You are just so wise and have the best attitude! Thank you for being an inspiration to me and countless others.