Read Tanner's story at tanner-foreverstrong.blogspot.com
Over the past week I have really been trying hard to focus on my blessings, rather than complaining about what I don't have. I may not be able to play volleyball just yet, but I have to legs to walk, and for that I am grateful. I did not have to have any operations that changed me physically, so I am still able to pursue playing. I am alive and well, and loving the little things of life. I am loving that it is becoming summer, as you know I spent last summer cooped up in a hospital room. I love the thought of being able to go back to school, and have a teacher who can lecture and give lessons rather than just doing worksheets. Last night I was able to take my first shower in a year, it is little things like these that make me feel closer to normality.
There are some days that I am very scared. Scared of relapse, scared of dying, scared of having my life ripped out from under me again. These things are always in the back of my mind. I realize that sometimes it is harder to heal emotionally than it is physically. But I know that we cannot live in fear, because that is no life at all. Little by little, I'm getting better. I am making progress. Sometimes I forget about cancer just for a little bit, and I can only look forward to more of these times.
I have had a great support system through out all of my illness. I honestly could not have made it through without my family, and without my dear friends. Thank you for helping me stay Steele Strong. It is so true that God does not put you through challenges on your own, you all have truly helped bear my burden. Thank you for the prayers, and thank you for everything.